Ready for a change
Y’all. I’m itching for a change. Now that I feel pretty confident in this whole mother of two thing I signed up for, I feel like it’s time to take on a new adventure. I can’t get comfortable the way things are. I’m all about keeping things lively. No. I totally lied. I love things to be the same. I don’t like change. If a pastor has been my pastor since I was three, then please don’t feel like you are being “lead” to go to another church. If you’ve been my best friend since preschool, then don’t move to Colorado for college. I like things to be the same. I’ve lived in the same town since I was born. Well, except for a little break in my late teens when I moved out to Colorado for a minute and a half. But I came back. I’m a homebody. I could not leave my house for three days straight and sometimes it doesn’t bother me.
But here’s the deal. I feel like God is really talking to me. Not in a crazy “Drown your kids” kind of way, but in a very quiet, hinting around, talking to me in the shower because He knows that’s the only place that I stop all the thoughts whirling around for five minutes. And it’s just crazy, crazy I say, what He is asking of me.
It’s not of great importance, like moving to Africa and feeding starving children. He’s not asking me to become a missionary, or even to leave the comfort of my suburban lifestyle. He’s asking me (I think) to do something that I’ve never had much interest in doing.
And yes, for once in my life, I’m going to be elusive.
And so… I’m thinking and praying and trying to work it out myself. But the thing is - I don’t know what I’m doing. So, I’m doing what I do best - I’m leaving it in His hands. And I’m going to let Him be my tour guide on this journey.
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Let’s talk about the change I’m not ready for. My best friend, Tiffany, is moving. She’s leaving. She’s had enough of this place and she’s just hitting the road. No. Not really. Her husband has been “called into the ministry” and will be going on staff at a church in Orlando. Orlando people. That’s a long way from where we live. A long way. And it breaks my heart because she’s just precious. Just precious. She’s a wonderful friend who has her heart in the right place daily. She can set me straight in a second, but she’s never uttered an unkind word (to me, anyways!). She’s adorable and her family is just an extension to mine. Before I had my gallbladder removed back in December, I wrote a note to J to tell him to let Tiffy take care of the girls while he was at work (he was going to pay you too!). See, I trust her that much. My girls have only been watched by a handful of people and Tiffy is one of them. She’s great. Awesome. Just the perfect friend. Did I mention that I just adore her?
I’m not ready for them to move. Just not. I’m going to miss seeing Big Sister & Skyler play. Y’all, they are bestfriends. They hold hands while walking in the mall. Skyler helps hoist Big Sister up in the play-sets at Chuck E. Cheeses and McDonalds. They just adore one another and it breaks my heart, absolutely brings tears to my eyes, thinking that they won’t have one another to play with. Look at them? They are adorable and we’ve already decided that they will marry one another and we’ll have awesome GameNights during the holidays. But don’t you know? They will be coming to my house more often for holidays and I’ll get Christmas and Tiffy will only get Thanksgiving. Why? Because I have the daughter. And the daughters always come home to their momma and daddy’s for Christmas.
Anyways. I’m just not ready. But I’m so excited that God has such a huge plan for them right now. Everything is just working out perfectly. God is moving and shaking and we can all see it. They are going to have so much fun living next to princesses and going to Disney all the time. And I’m excited because I was deprived as a child and have never ever been to Disney World or Disney Land. Isn’t that just a shame? An absolute shame.
So. I’m rambling. And rambling. Because that is what I do. I’m not good at beginnings or ends. But I guess it’s the middle that counts anyways. Right? Like Oreos. Sweet, sweet Oreos.
PS- How weird is it that as soon as I hit the “publish” button, Tiff calls to tell me that their house, you know, the one they put up 7 days ago, has sold. Sold, people. It’s all happening so fast.
May 13th, 2008 at 3:18 pm
I LOVE YOU!!!!! I just want to drive over and give you a HUGE HUG and a white chocolate Mocha. I am sitting here with tears rolling down my face..thanks :o) By the way our kids will still get married, there is no doubt about that. And we will totally have to talk about the Christmas thing being at your house! Seriously, I know God has brought you in my life for a reason. Your friendship is so special to me…more than you know. I couldn’t imagine it without you! Our relationship will not change one bit. You are my family! Love you girl!
May 13th, 2008 at 3:35 pm
Change is difficult, but so necessary if we are to grow as humans.
Glad you’re listening to God in those still, quiet moments. 
May 13th, 2008 at 4:54 pm
I am reminded of the great and wonderful, Anne, of Green Gables. She always referred to her “kindred spirit”.– remember this?
Your post about your dear friend reminded me of that.– makes me a little jealous, I’ll have you know!
However, I love that you are giving whatever it is to God. I have SOO much trouble doing that little task. I tend to want to fix things myself. I do find that if God does things in HIS timing and way, the outcome is usually a double blessing.
My thoughts are with you…. ((hugs))
A~
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May 13th, 2008 at 5:19 pm
I will be praying for you! Things will work the Lord is in control!
May 13th, 2008 at 5:28 pm
Change is never easy, but will be so worth it if that’s what God’s leading you to do.
) My best friend is moving in a couple weeks, to California! Her daughter is Bailey’s best friend so I’m also doubly sad. I’m really feeling your pain right now!
I’m sorry your best friend is moving (I hate to see her go too
May 13th, 2008 at 5:40 pm
I am new here, but just love your blog!
Oh, how necessary, yet scary and uncertain change can be. Isn’t it great to know that no matter what God has it all under control….even when it involves things we may not like, He really knows best and we just need to follow. Seems easy, right? I know, totally isn’t. And I am totally with you on the not liking change deal and I have never been to either Disney myself.
May 13th, 2008 at 7:05 pm
You’re making me tear up, and it’s not just because Steel Magnolias is on too! I’m sorry to hear you’re having a difficult time of it right now, but His plans will work out for the best for each of you. Maybe He’s stirring you up to do something to help get you through as He works.:)
May 13th, 2008 at 8:55 pm
HOW COME NOBODY TOLD ME IT SOLD??? Sheesh. Now that I’m away from the computer all day, am I going to have to find out about things like this….like this? I was using my “Im excited they’re moving to Orland because Im gonna camp out on their floor and go to Disney” as a way of masking my real feelings like….Tiffany has taught me more than she’ll ever know about being a woman of God. Aw Man..it really is happening huh?
May 13th, 2008 at 8:56 pm
Oh and I wanna be on the fly on the wall in your shower…not for the reason you would normally think when someone says that…cause Im nosey and I NEED to know what God’s telling you. Maybe I can help :o)
May 13th, 2008 at 9:36 pm
Jill, I cried from “middle” to “middle”. Whether best friend or dearest daughter, it will be hard to see her venture so far away. God gives us few “kindred spirits” to enjoy in our lifetime… isn’t it wonderful that we live in this age of easy communication.
And by the way… I thought I had dibs on Christmas!!
May 13th, 2008 at 10:15 pm
You are lucky to have such a fabulous friend and I am so sorry you will have to say good-bye!
May 14th, 2008 at 10:56 am
Aww, Jill. I know how you feel. My very best friend, Vanessa, we grew up together. Never seperated from 5 yrs old and then in 2000 she moved to CT and became a northerner. I was devestated. Especially because my 2nd best friend had left for TX a few years before that. There were a few more events before Vanessa left that by the time she left, I thought I had lost everyone. You know what though, Vanessa and D’Lynn (tx girl) were such good friends that even distance hasn’t seperated us. I can go for a while and not talk to them and when we do, it is as if no time has passed at all and then it always gives reason for a trip when one of us needs one, lol. For you, Orlando, I would go visit her on a regular basis if I were you! God will take care of everything, I promise.
May 14th, 2008 at 2:43 pm
All you can do in situations like this is pray that God gives you the grace to accept the change that He wants in your life. It is so hard having good friends move away. I don’t know what this other thing is, but pray,pray, pray about it.
May 15th, 2008 at 8:58 pm
Moving is so hard, however my best friend and I grew even closer when I moved from fresno to La back in 1999. Now that I am in Ga we are even closer! Don’t worry! H